Update

So as many of you have noticed, Ive become less and less active, and will eventually, as time goes on, leave. 

Nothing has been bothering me here, nothing has occurred to make me decide this, though another friend of mine deactivated. 

I havent had the time that I used to have, and DeviantART is becoming less appealing to me, now just a site in which I am reminded how little attention I give my friends on here. So, a message to those friends now, before I end up not saying them at all. 

Not just my friends, but to everyone.. from the good and the bad, Ive seen moments in which I regret, moments in which I relish in. 

From my first watcher, to my first friend, GunChica (now known as ) to my first rp with to my first story rp with To my first love, now lost, , to my first inspiration (that I have now had the honor of meeting) , to new wonderful friends.. a fabulous group of people that we all got together, busted trolls together, and kicked off art thieves: 
 
These guys have been the best friends ever to me.. seriously. Thank you all so much..

and of course to the newer friends I had and have made..
, a very sweet person who came to chat with me, and I immediately became friends with, also making me feel not so lonely. A very funny and amazing person. ^^ Another amazing person who has been my friend for quite some time, makes amazing stories and has a wonderful talent. ^^

and Two of the coolest people I had met in a long while, with both amazing personalities, and wondering art skills. Though sadly havent had contact with for some time, but hope to again soon. 

To the most honored friends I have ever made.. despite what we go through, what we do, who we are. 
 
these five people are those who impacted me most while being here..  To a great extent as well. 
To Draken, though we dont talk that often, you and I have been friends for as long as I can remember.. meeting up just because of some crazy troller and art thief. For some of the most adventurous, and fun rps, along with some really interesting moments.. I dont think Ill meet another person like that here on DA. Not only a friend to me, but a friend to everyone you meet.. a truly loving and sweet guy. Always makes sure that you give your friends the attention they need when they need it... and above all, the best poem writer Ive met so far. ^^ Never stop being who you are.. because you are amazing as you are. 

To Brett, despite what we had gone through, and things I have said to you, you still had a huge impact on my life.. helping me learn more about how I dont want to act, how I do want to act, what to achieve, what to avoid. And above all being the first person Ive loved despite you breaking my heart. But no ones perfect, and shame only falls on the person who decides to hate someone just for lack of love. Besides, you helped shape my future in a positive way, not negatively. 

To Scale, though there are.. so so so many times we have quarreled, Im happy to just see you with your own friends, going on about your own life. Without those bad moments, we had good moments, great moments.. And we just had so much fun. It will never be the same again, no matter how much I wish it would.. Because wishing doesnt solve problems, actions do. I refuse to not take action, and will say now that I am sorry, to not only you, but to your friends and who, by you, got a bad impression of me and instead of fixing a problem, left it open and worsened it by my own actions, though unable to be changed. Regretful perhaps, but not changeable. You have so much as far as friends go, gifts, and of course a page full of all your friends and such, and I think you should enjoy that without someone crushing down what you love. Hope you have many more great years on DA, and make many new friends, as well as keeping those old ones. 

To Ivy (tainted imagination), all I need to say is.. I seriously think you are the coolest chica I have ever met. Like.. I wouldnt even begin to know what to say, so since you are my best friend Ill make this like an IOU paragraph. kay? kay cool. (no but seriously, you deserve more than a paragraph.. you deserve an essay, a whole report on how awesome you are.. Ill see that it happens too.) 

And last, but certainly, certainly not least.. my best friend, who stayed with me through the toughest moments, and through hard times, never leaving or giving up on me, and now, the love of my life.  
Truly the most loyal, and caring of them all.. From times I had deactivated, he easily knew where to find me, and how to help me out. He has supported me through all the bad times I have gone through, and because of him I have learned to be more grateful.. how to forgive, and the most important phrase he said to me being, "Follow your mind, not your heart. your heart tells you what you want, your mind tells you what you need" and I try to everyday, to follow my mind, and my heart. Not blocking one from the other, instead keeping it balanced by what I want AND need. And though he does so many things for me, he as well has gone through tougher times.. and I can only tell myself today how I wish I had been there to help.. But like said before, not to waste time on wishing, and actually just take action. 
He has taught me much, helped me learn to respect, and above all the importance of education, patience, and loyalty. He is the most loving guy I know, even though sometimes we have hard moments. To many of you he is not perfect, but he is perfect for me.. 


Now to the friends I had in real life, but left.. perhaps never to see again. 
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I love all of you.. I hope to never be forgotten, but instead left as a good memory and to be forgotten of things I have done wrong.. I miss all of you dearly...


Thank you to those who have read this update.. perhaps the last one. Here is to all those I have not forgotten, those who I have been friends with, lost, kept in contact with, met, or been inspired by~